For 30 days
a month… I wait.
It’s
painful.
Yet, it also
fills me with a level of anticipation that compares to little else.
I check my
phone every time it bings in hopes that the email that just came through
reveals the title “Monthly Update.”
That’s all I
can hope for right now. I am invited to ask both of my Ethiopian kiddos 5 simple
questions each month, and 30 long days later, they will send me their answers
and an updated picture. Update day is my favorite day… for now.
But... every
once in awhile, another adoptive parent will head over for court or embassy and
then the real fun begins. Last week was
one of those weeks! Two girlfriends
headed to Ethiopia and took small care packages to our kids. For a couple days
in a row, my phone would pop up new pictures of my sweet teens.
One after
another.
The moms
would write me funny stories that show how different my kids are. My daughter was busy requesting a photo shoot
with another little girl, but my son was protesting, saying they already took too
many pictures of him. He told one friend, “my mom already knows what I look
like!”
They shared innocent words from my kids and heartbreaking messages about needing to comfort my daughter as she cried. She simply wanted to know when it would be her mom’s turn to come to Ethiopia. She wanted to know when she would get to hug her mom.
They shared innocent words from my kids and heartbreaking messages about needing to comfort my daughter as she cried. She simply wanted to know when it would be her mom’s turn to come to Ethiopia. She wanted to know when she would get to hug her mom.
She is not
the only one.
There is
nothing I want more than to hold that little girl and her beautiful little
brother. In order to do that, I still need a PAIR letter. A simply letter that proves they are orphans
and invites us to come to Ethiopia for court. For months we have had to wait
for that letter.
It. Is.
Coming. Right?
Although one
letter can’t seem to find its way to me, another one did. Today, I opened up my mailbox to find a handwritten letter so full of the word LOVE it sounds like it was written by… well… a
teenage girl!
A little piece of her full page letter… |
And it was!
The friend
that had to comfort my daughter and wipe away her tears for me last week brought back to the states a letter from my daughter. It begins, “Dear my
family.” What a powerful word for a 14-year-old orphan to write. Family.
Once a
month, I get an update, but every day I have hope.
This month…
I pray for a PAIR letter.
This month…
I want to hold all 5 of my children in my arms.
This month…
I dream of hearing my two favorite African voices call me “Mommy.”